sometimes, it's really not always rainbows and butterflies. the dark clouds would appear once in awhile, sometimes, with the purpose to irritate the shit out of you.
and of course, usually during times like this, i would get my snoopy cordless phone and start callin the usual few. you know, to nag and complain and swear, and sometimes, cry my heart out. but today, i did nothin. ok, i admit. i swore abit to kia while on msn. and that's it. i didnt reach out to my phone and what-so-ever. i merely sat down in front of my com and stoned. it was then i realise, private time is important.
cos you know, sometimes, even if you wanna find someone to bitch about your day, the person may have other things on hand. they might not have the time to listen to you crap. but luckily for me, even if my frens are busy, they'd still make time for me. but this time round, i decided to be the considerate friend. for i know, they're havin their a's tml. so i guess it's about time i learn how to handle these 'dark clouds' all by myself.
but it's a tough struggle eh. im used to screamin out all my thoughts and now, ive gotta learn how to handle it by myself. it was then my phone rang. a sms. from a person who was so familiar yet so distant. well, nvm the content cos it was crap. then i remembered he once mentioned that i could look for him if i were to run into any problem. right eh. it was then i remembered quite a number of people said i could go to them if i run into any problems. hahas. im sure you all were in the same situation eh. but seriously, we only go to those people whom we're really comfortable with. you know, you can feel free to scream the word FUCK in caps and act like a total wreck, and yet, they can still continue to be so patient to you. they are what i call friends.
anyway, ive no idea how i digress till this point. well just take it as im crappin and i need an outlet for my thoughts.
im indeed tired of puttin up a brave front. i really feel like dyin. fuck.